Okay guys, I’ve had the longest week and it’s only Thursday.
Somehow the week is moving fast and slow at the same time……fast because everything is happening all at once, and slow because I’m tired, overwhelmed, and mentally stretched thin. Between trying to be an adult and trying to be a mom, I’m exhausted. Truly. I need a very long, very serious massage right now.
Because of everything going on, I honestly haven’t had the time or brain space to write, reflect, or even gather my thoughts. My head has been occupied with other things, so writing a weekly post has felt impossible.
And the annoying part?
I actually have SO many things drafted already. I write from time to time and save them in drafts so that weeks like this would be easier. But for some reason, whenever it’s time to post, the drafts start looking like rubbish to me. I don’t like any of them. So I end up forcing myself to write something fresh on the spot, which is exactly what I’m doing today…..again.
Long story short is, I didn’t really have a topic for this week so I decided to ask my bestie (ChatGPT) to suggest something for me and the topic it landed on was:
“The Unexpected Kindness of Strangers.”
At first, I couldn’t think of anything recent. But then I remembered someone who has been a huge blessing in my life these past few months, not really a stranger anymore, but a person whose kindness is always so unexpected and so perfectly timed that it still shocks me almost every week.
Don’t get me wrong……when I say unexpected, I don’t mean this person is the opposite of kind. In fact, she’s someone whose kindness I already experience regularly as she comes once a week to help me with my daughter for a few hours, and those hours save me more than she probably realizes. So it’s not that kindness is new from her.
What I mean by unexpected is the kind of kindness that comes out of the blue, the type you aren’t already counting on or used to. The kind you’re not anticipating or entitled to in any way.
Let me explain this beautiful kindness to you….
There have been weeks where I was struggling silently with something….either feeling unseen, frustrated, sad, or overwhelmed. Nights where I cried from stress or exhaustion, especially with motherhood. And somehow, when she comes in… she starts speaking directly to the thing I cried about the night before. Crazy right?
But yeah I’m not exaggerating lol….
One week, I was really sad because I felt like I wasn’t getting the validation and support I needed from the people I expected it from……about a situation I was going through and I remember crying and just feeling defeated.
The next day she came, and out of nowhere, she starts to say every single thing I needed to hear!! You know, validating me in the exact places I felt unseen. It was almost scary. Like she was standing in my room watching me cry the night before.
Another time, motherhood had beaten me that week. I was exhausted mentally and physically. I cried that night too. And the next day, she came in talking about what a great mom I am, how well cared for my daughter is, how proud I should be of myself… all the words I didn’t even know I needed.
There have been multiple scenarios like this…..lol
And yeah because I’m quite a spiritual person, I can’t help but think that God uses her as a messenger. Like a reminder that He sees me, He hears me, He knows my heart, and He knows where it hurts.
So tonight, when ChatGPT suggested the topic “unexpected kindness,” she was the first person that came to mind. Because her kindness isn’t loud. It isn’t materialistic. It isn’t anything dramatic. It’s simple, timely, comforting words……and they have meant more to me than she will ever know.
This of course, reinforced the fact that;
Kindness is not always big.
Sometimes it’s just the right words at the right moment.
Our words are powerful and they define us more than anything we consume.
Coincidentally, in my Bible study this week, my reading fell to where Jesus talked about how we’re not defined by what goes into us, but instead, by what comes out. Our words matter. Our words shape people. Our words can carry someone through the day without us even knowing.
Because of this woman, I have started thinking more about the small actions, patience, grace, gentleness, encouragement and how they are also deep forms of kindness.
It’s because of her that I am here today, writing about one of the unexpected kindness I’ve been blessed with. And truly, from the deepest part of me, I hope life returns this same kindness to her……..quietly, suddenly, and exactly when she needs it the most.
Anyway guys, I know this post isn’t really a reflection or a rant. It’s not planned or polished. But it’s true. And it’s what my tired mind could manage today.
Thank you for reading, and hopefully next week I’ll have something more put together for you guys.
But for now… make do with this one 😭
PS: Fun little discovery this week guys, I realized I can completely switch up my look in seconds… thanks to AI! 😅 So, I’m attaching a few pictures of the different pretty wigs it gave me for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy! And while you’re at it, don’t forget to share one act of kindness someone has done for you recently in the comments, I’d love to hear it.
With love,
Beks💜
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